imperfect.

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If I’ve ever given anyone the impression that I have it together, please let me assure you that I do not. This week has been hard. I’m glad to welcome a new week tomorrow…

Maybe it was the fact that I did not work out even once this week (I worked out three times last week) OR maybe that my boys threw fits every time I turned the corner (stores, restaurants, naptime, you name it)… OR maybe because I was discouraged that Ian’s new legs hurt him so badly that he had to come home instead of meeting a friend for breakfast. Maybe all of those combined, among other things. I’m ashamed to admit that my kids ate cereal bars for breakfast everyday. I made muffins one evening to give them for breakfast the next morning and they didn’t like them. Boo. We had takeout for most dinners just because I didn’t want to make a mess and have to clean up the kitchen. I didn’t even clean up toys on some evenings. Why? They were going to get played with the next day, right? We skipped Emma’s soccer practice Thursday and Jack lost the privilege of going to his soccer game after throwing an awful tantrum Saturday morning. The tantrum was because I gave him ONE pop tart instead of TWO. He screamed and cried for 30 minutes because he wanted TWO pop tarts. Lord have mercy.

I am not perfect. I try to be a good wife and mom. But I’m tired and can easily get discouraged. In this season of mothering, I just can’t seem to get it together. I have a running to-do list in my head that I never get to. However, I’m grateful that my kids are warm at night and go to bed with full bellies. With that, I consider the day a success. There will always be dishes in the sink and laundry to fold. On days that are especially long, I think of the following verse…

Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28

Thank you, Jesus!

Friday afternoon the weather was so nice that we all sat outside in our front yard and played. After a long day I reflected on how much fun it is to be a mom and how wonderful the moments with my children are. I love to see their smiles and hear their laughter. I pray that God gives me many more years of life with them. My job of being their mom is not always easy and doesn’t come without challenges, but I believe that God has chosen this path for me. So, I will do my best at it.

“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord…” Colossians 3:23

Whether you are a stay at home mom like me, or work full time, or whatever you do, let’s do it with joy in our hearts. Let’s do it for the Lord!

2 thoughts on “imperfect.

  1. Loved this writing. Life does provide us many challenges and many times we lose our focus in comparing ourselves to others never understanding that everyone has their burdens to bear. Your honesty touched my heart and made me reflect on the goodness of God to be by our sides through the ups and downs. Tonight has been long with some job duties that I wish were complete. Reading your blog helped me look up which I constantly have to do to carry on the mission God has led me to live. Thanks for the word of God that reminded me of how blessed I am and how grateful I am that God brings the right people and message to me whenever I need it. I am proud of all you have done this year in spite of the many circumstances that have come your way. Housework is not that important…but being there and loving in spite of the struggles is…keep loving…housework will always be waiting and never be enough…embrace living instead. Love you-Denisse and God Bless you all!

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